Damn why do I titled this blog "not so long time ago, not so far away" I dunno... maybe because of what I'm feeling right now. I dunno! I dunno! I dunno! LET'S JUST PUT IT THIS WAY...
Once in my life I've met this very special lady in my life. 1st
time I saw her,I knew that she would change everything in me. I never
knew I would love her more than anything or anybody else. I'd never
expect that there will be something special between the 2 of us.. Una
kong nakilala tong taong to, feeling mo she's one of the boys. Sobrang dali
makisama and pakisamahan.Very happy go lucky sa harap ng mga tao
nakapalibot sa kanya.Walang ka'arte arte sa katawan..
Pero behind those
smiles & laughter niya, ay isang tao marami iniisip at marami gusto pa
gawin sa buhay niya, gusto maging msaya at mag enjoy, isang tao gusto kumawala at
mkita ang totoong meaning ng happiness.
Pero ang mas malupit dito.. ang
pagiging kakaiba niya mag isip at kakaibang klase ang pagiging malabo ng
personality niya. Define sobrang labo dahil nobody can tell what she feels
at all, kung mahal mo siya at gusto mo, try to understand what she's been
thinking & what she feels. Siguro it was just so amazing kung pano ko siya
nakilala ng mabuti at naiintndhan ko ang bawat kilos at iniisip niya, minsan
napapangiti na lang ako kung pano ko nagawa kilalanin at intindihin ang topak ng taong
to, kung d ka mag tyatyaga d mo makukuha ang mga ngiti niya.
At 1st I'd just wanted to make her feel how to be happy about life and about love. I
want to show her that everybody deserves to be love & how it feels to be
loved. Gusto ko lang ipakita na iba ako sa mga taong dumating sa buhay niya na all
I ever wanted to do is to make her happy & for her to feel the love
she deserves. I know it's not that easy makuha ang pagmamahal niya, lahat
ginawa ko. Ang kilalanin siya, alamin ang kaligayahan at weakness
niya. Minsan nga na isip ko parang ang unfair, because I'm the only person na
pinahirapan niya makuha lang ang matamis niyang "oo". Pero come to think of
it.. it's all worth a sacrifice, hardship and waiting. Because I know that I'm the only
person in her life that got all the love she can give & I'm the only
person she gave her all & everything.
Everyday,every hour,every min. & every sec. was worth it being w/her.
Every time
she smiles at me & every time I saw her walking towards me, my heart
melts w/so much happiness I feel inside. Everyday w/her is worth a smile
on my face.Our love & our story is worth keeping forever.
I know I didn't do my best to save what we have, And still I don't know how to let go.She was just one of a kind...
I
know that maybe someday she will find someone better than me... someone that
she will never be scared off... I'm very sorry for letting you down.
Thank you for coming into my life . And if you ever need somone or a
friend whom you can trust & knows you very well,I will always b
right next to you. And will love you every single day of my life.. Thank
you so much.
